My dad came down today for a visit and we were able to talk about some deep and tough stuff with each other. I've been having some hard times recently with being here. I feel like I've already learned what I came here to learn and now I just want to go home. I know I'm not finished learning because there is always some way I can take in more wisdom. I would rather learn with family and friends nearby because I am tired of this experience.
The only thing that is really worth anything to me here is the school. The classes are a blessing., but even those I would be able to take outside prison. I feel surrounded by ignorant, stubborn guys who won't listen to reason or even the littlest things. School is the only place where I can have intelligent conversations, but even in that setting there are not too many people really want to learn to change their wrong thinking. School is just something for them to do.
I want to continue my life instead of living at a standstill. I also have some relationships I feel like I need to reconcile and I don't think much fixing can be done from my current position. I continue to pray and have faith foe release in God's timing.
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We have recently learned of your situation and our hearts cry for you and your family. We love all of you and pray that you will feel the love of our Lord and experience the peace that only He can give.
I don't know from personal experience what you are going through but I have many friends who have been where you are. I just read the story one of them who is now in his mid-50's but spent several years on the inside. He is free today because of the radical change that only comes from our Father above. What he learned on the inside enables him to walk humbly on the outside these many years later.
I "know" it is difficult to wait while on the inside. Another friend has been waiting for 26 years (20 - life, 5 parole hearings denied because of who he killed not that he killed). He may never know the freedom of the outside but he experiences a freedom that many believers on the outside never experience. (I hope that sentence made sense.)
We have loved your family since we prayed for a husband for your mom. Our friendship is cemented in the our Savior's blood who will give you what you need to be successful both inside and out. God bless you and keep you! Darwin & Fauhn Schierer
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