Over the past few weeks I have grown increasingly stressed about getting out of here. Through prayer and counsel from friends, I decided that quitting my job in the library would be best for me so I could relax and get out of that negative environment.
Yes, the library is a negative place, despite my efforts to transform it into a place conducive to learning. My boss has always had a foul mouth and she also loves to talk badly about others while complaining about her own life as a young single mother. Sorry, but at least she gets to go home to family instead of sharing a prison cell with a stranger. I've encouraged her to go to school so she wouldn't be stuck at this dead-end job but, apparently, none of my ideas are any good. If she's not going to try to improve her situation, I wish she would stop complaining.
Of course, since this is a prison library, the patrons that stop by are not the most polite bunch; in fact, most are quite rude. I'd rather not serve rude folks all day since it just wears me down, so I told my boss a week ago that last Friday would be my last day. The only response I got besides "OK" was a comment that, if she called me out, I would have to come. Even though I had one of the best coworkers yet, I would not be working at her beck and call, and I told her as much. I will go in on Monday and Friday afternoons to help out, though.
Today was my first day without working and it was great. I woke up around nine, read a book until lunch, then spent the afternoon at rec running and working out. I will probably be helping the maintenance department with an inventory tracking system every now and then, but I hope to spend most of my time on personal projects like writing poetry, making progress on my book list, and drawing. I also have a graphic design business to make plans for.
I have to make an effort to be purposeful with my time, but making only a little positive progress is better than treading water in the toxic library until I leave. And my release can't come soon enough.
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